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Posted by Cloud On January - 28 - 2007 Comments Off

The fog drifted in around me. The water lapped up around my arms as I took another step deeper into the pool. Her dead body lay across my arms. I was still in shock, my legs wanted to collapse out from under me, I didn’t know what I was doing anymore. She was there, so beautiful, so loving, and that beast… that thing… I wanted to yell out but I couldn’t. What good would it do anyway. She was gone. It was all my fault too. It had to be, had I just not let her go, but she never did listen to orders. She wanted to go. She asked to come along, in fact she had insisted; jumping ahead before I could stop her. Then he came down, right from the ceiling, sword in hand.

Utter loss and despair courses through my fatigued body. What more can I do? I could hardly stand, I just wanted to give up. Helplessness flooded over me, and I released her body into the water. She slowly sank downward into the deepening pool. I couldn’t take it… …I couldn’t stand it…

I feel like I have been run over by truck. My companions had gathered about a fire and were softly talking. Companions? I had forgotten completely about my companions. Not that I cared, I was just going to stay here until I died. I would never forgive myself for what happened last night. How could this have happened? I hated him for what he had done, and I hated myself even more for not being able to stop it. It happened in slow motion, the moment replayed through my mind over and over again, there wasn’t anything I could do about it.

It won’t go away, I just want it all to end! I feel sick in the pit of my stomach. This isn’t right, something must be wrong, something must be wrong…

I don’t want to live anymore. I’m helpless. She’s dead! She died because that sick beast just wanted to get revenge upon me. Why couldn’t I stop it! Why didn’t he just take his anger out on me, why did he drag her into it? Was it because she was an ancient? No, it was because I loved her… I can never forgive myself.

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